What a day..!!! (Part III)

Assalamualaikum n salam sejahtera suma, (again, aq skema lg...) 

Tadaa....!!!!!! blog aq berwajah baru....!!!!! dengan heading baru n make-up yg bru..... kalo kamu rsa blog aq cantik sila laa komen ya... kalo kamu rsa nda cantik sila lah diam-diam, jgn komen pa2  hehee.... gurau jak, kalo kamu rsa aq perlu tmbah something or kurgkan something, sila la komen, tuk pedoman d masa akan datang......  ^_^

Pagi td aq rsa mcm susah mo bngun pagi. Alarm berbunyi jam 6.00am, tp akhirnya aq bngun jam 8.00 pg. Plan bngun tu actually mo cuci kain bha, pkai mesin basuh. But malangnya, mati air...  >_<  So, terpaksa la aq mencuci kain yg setinggi busut anai2 tu manually... Bukan apa bha, aq mmg cuci kain ari2... tp memandangkan schedule sepanjang minggu ini yg padat n busy tahap gilak babeng,, so terlonggok2 la pakaian aq kat baldi tu. So, I do my laundry tonight laa.....

Huuhhhh... ! ! ! Ckp psal this week, mmg aq busy sgt2. Mna la ngan Readers' Theatre, sukantara, h.work, my daily activities, shopping, oopsss.... ok, next.....

First aq nak citer pasal sukantara. Frankly speaking aq mmg x brapa minat nak ikut sukan ne... Tp, memandangkan da wajib, kna la aq ikut jgak. Ada 3 acara kesemuanya utk sukantara kali ini, Lompat tinggi, Lari 60 meter, n lastly Lontar peluru. Guess what..???? aq gagal ketiga2 acara tu...   >_<   x dapat sumbang markah utk rumah sukan divisi PUTRA. At least aq bngga jgak la, lontar peluru aq lepas rekod utk perempuan n lari 60 meter tu aq dpt no.2 tuk saringan .....

Next is Readers' theatre..... Ini la program pertama yg batch kami, (PPISMP TESL Sem2) IPG Kampus Gaya buat. Pertama kali tu mmg la bnyk kesalahan yg ada, kna tegur laa, tp suma tu mmg utk kebaikan kami jgak. Berkat latihan yg berterusan, rehearsal yg berbanyak kali, akhirnya program kami tu berjalan dengan jayanya. Untuk aq pla sbg peserta, aq duo ngan klasmate aq, kami baca fairytale story about "How Butterflies Came To Be..."  walaupun x dpat tempat, I've done my best n dapat jgak hadiah saguhati. Lg satu, aq puN ada jgak bwat persembahan tuk Readers' Theatre tu, aq menari Modern Dance, together with student from Group 2. It was fun n enjoyable...!!!!!

ni time aq n my partner bca skrip Readers' Theatre

time kami wat performance, aq berdiri kat belakang tu....

pose kami yg terakhir, kangkangan maut tu...!!!!  ^_^

Walaupun x dapat tempat, tp bngga jgak dapat hadiah saguhati...

Now, Readers' Theatre da abis da, tggal ready tuk Talentime lg ne....(for English Language Society) kami mo rancang persembahan kami kali ne bagus2 supaya kali ne menang..... huuhhh,,.. semangat tu bha.....    ^_^  x lupa jgak nak fokus tuk all my h.work n all that MQA stuff...... aiyooo ,, kna ada KKE yg tinggi ne......

Ok,, smpai cni jak tuk entry kali ne. Cukup la sekadar utk menceritakan busy week that I've faced.... n lagi stu, kalo kamu nmpak aq mcm senyap n murung jak jgn heran ya....... aq kadang2 pndai datang bad mood ku... tetiba jak tu, entah la,, PMT kaley.....heheeee.....   ^_^

Coretan hari ini...

Assalamualaikum...  ^_^ hehe... terkejut ka...???? ini masi blog aq lg laa.... cuma heading dya jak tukar, sebab heading lama tu terlampau panjang n da bosan ngan heading tu. Now heading blog aq, " BICARA NOKTAH INI. " tajuk heading aq ne pun xda kena mengena ngan sesaper.... cuma mcm aq rsa perkataannya tu ada dalam my favourite song. n lagi stu, tajuk heading tu memberi makna kepada aq. xtau la mkna apa......  ^_^

Enough with heading, now about event yg berlaku beberapa hari yg lalu. sjak dua menjak ne aq jarang ber'blogging'. al maklumlah, cuti seminggu Tahun Baru Cina kan, aq pun balik kg.... n as usual, bila time cuti kat kg tu, biasalah aq tulung mamaku kat warung dya... kerja kat sana....so , jarang la update blog coz kelembapan line internet menjadikan aq tension tahap gilak babeng n trus aq off lap top. nasib bek ada facebook peneman hatiku time cuti....

Hari ini hari Sabtu, awal sikit aq balik IPG.... sbab ada h.work yg perlu d laksanakan n ada la kerja2 lg..... so, d kesempatan ini, aq ambil la masa terluang ini (dalam jam 1 pagi ne..!!!) tuk meng'update' blog aq.. nti kalo besawang sepa susah....????? aq jugak......

Owh ya...!!! sikit lupa, aq puas hati ngan bilik aq yg telah dikemas dan d hias fasa pertama.... (cewah..!!!!) A big thanx to Syaifuddin, my roomate yg bnyak sponsor everything....... next time, aq pla jd sponsor.... kami kerja kuat tau...=_= n nasib bek ada bunga api yg meletup2 d angkasa, kami hnya mampu melihatnya dari tingkap bilik (sambil mengelap cermin) n seriously, sangat cantik...!!!!!!!!!

Sekarang sedang list barang2 mengikut priority utk d beli bila elaun bulan 2 keluar nti.... bukannya mo shopping, tp berbelanja berhemah, (ya laito kunun....  =_=) 

Bsok pla ari Ahad,, I mean ari ne la hari Ahad...... plan nak wat suma h.work n kerja, so xla busy dkat2 nak start kuliah esok..... Actually, aq mmg busy this week... so many things to do.... but I try to focus n doing my job.... Semoga semuanya berjalan lancar..... Amiiinn......  ^_^

What a day..!!! (Part II)

Assalamualaikum w.b.t , n salam satu Malaysia...... Pertama sekali, aq mo mintak mahap la  coz tulis entry kali ne dalam bahasa BM.... Tp aq ada bnyk ne mo d cakap n aq x sabar mo cakap sda ne.

First of all, aq mmg tau ari ne aq akan busy, bnyk kerja.... Tp x la se-busy tahap gilak babeng neyh.... smpai penat yg mo mati pun ada...... D mulakan dgn masa kuliah yg pertama, iaitu GAMES... As usual, kami play hoki laa... belajar teknik2 asas n ada la main2 skit..... mungkin mmg nasib aq la masuk game hoki ne... since I know nothing about hoki, n now I can play hockey, although nda la se profesional mna kan, tp boleh laa....... its a good  thing n fun u know.......  ^_^

After playing hockey until I got relly sweaty n tired. Then, next lecture, but I'm not felt tired n sleepy..... 

After recess time, we went 4 TREASURE HUNT. I'm really excited bcoz I am the participant that have been chosen through the preliminary round. Semangat la bha kunuk ne.... Bila jak  dorg ckp GO..!!!! trus berlari-laran d gelanggang tenis, mencari klu....ok,, apa lagi yg kamu expect from treasure hunt....??? x kan la aq mo cakap satu persatu d cni kan...???  mestila berlari laran non-stop mencari klu....... Sangat penat ya...... sangat3x penat.... smpai satu ketika aq rsa kakiku sda sgt sakit n my stomach mcm mok pecah jak....... but I keep moving on,,.... yeeaahhh...!!!!! thats the spirit....!!!!!!!!!!! towards the end,, ada macam2 la problem. tp x bleh nak salahkan dorg kan, setiap manusia melakukan kesilapan n lagi2 first time dorg handle event like that..... Tp overall kan,,... aq enjoy la ngan activity dorg. walaupun kami dapat tempat yg paling akhir skali, tp mmg seronok la bha......  ^_^

Lepas tu, klasmates aq da bolh balik da and relax. but 4 me n sedikit kawan aq yg len, kna panggil oleh tutor kami, dya mo dgr kami punya Reader's Theatre. hurrmm.... punyala penat time tu. termengantuk n tertidur bha d ctu.... d ctu pun kami enjoy gak.... apa yg enjoy..??? kami jak la yg tau......  hehee...  ^_^

Kemudian, balik ke bilik utk duduk d katil buat beberapa saat sja. Then pastu kna lg hadir tuk latihan Kawad kaki rumah sukan kami, Rumah Putra. Tp yg aq malas nya tu d suruh lagi berlari..... sda la penat mo mati lari time treasure hunt, lari lg ....???? haaiusshhhh...... pastu proceed ngan latihan kawad kaki. Tp kaley ne special skit coz kami wat latihan dpan surau. again, we enjoy our time there also.......

Selepas melalui hari2 yg memenatkan ini, akhirnya berakhir dgn sedikit kegembiraan. ELAUN SDA KELUAR......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! itu yg aq ska n nanti2 kan selama ini. bolehla sda start list barang2 yg perlu aq beli...In a short word, HAPPY MOOD la sekarang ne.....

Talk about my last entry, aq berharap si dia akan hadir dalam mimpiku..... tp yg aq mimpi semalam adalah pasal kasut..... hurrmm.... macam mo kna beli kasut kuliah baru jak ne..???  ^_^ heran aq.....  tp aq still berharap agar malam ne la dya ada dlm mimpi aq..... miss u.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  @_@

What a day..!!!

Today I've got a chance to update my blog.... juz to fill in the empty time that I hav. I've faced so many kinds of feeling today. HAPPY, RELIEVED, CHEERFUL, PEACE, MOTIVATED, OPTIMISTIC,and also SAD... maybe bcoz of I've faced so many things today..... So much fun with the PJ today. Although really feel tired, (bcoz of the penalty 4 not brought many newspapers,) we are told to jog, 2 round...!!!! But its okay 4 me, bcoz there is the benefit, losing my weight....!!! Compare to the first time I came here, I can feel the difference (in terms of the largeness of my stomach...  ^_^) Then, so much fun with the activity in PJ, playing with handmade newspaper ball....  ^_^

In class, I hav been surprised by the leaving one of my klasmate, Deborah. I've read her later and almost cried, but I juz hold on or else what would my fren say..??? huurrmmm..... try to act like a real man la kunun......  @_@ And then my another fren, Dyanne, she read the letter loudly to the class. She was crying, and that actually makes me want to cry... I dunno,... everytime I see other people cry, I feel like I want to cry too. But we hav to accept the truth that Deborah hav leaving us. She's actually sick, so she postponed her course. Really felt sad,, but 4 sure she will come back here again next semester.....

Juz right now... I can see *** look not felt really well.... I can feel it too... I'm sorry 4 the last thing that u want me to do..... its juz the time was not quite suitable at that time.....  I really miss  *** ....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I always see u'r face everyday...... but always missing u....... please,,.. come to my dream tonight....... I wish u will be in my dream tonight,,... hhuuuhh,,..!!!! really felt exhausted rite now... so many activities and events this morning.. I want to sleep now.... AGAIN... I wish u 'll b in my dream tonite.....  zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

^_^

Di sebalik tabir blog aku.....

Hurmm,,, lagi kena tag oleh FarhaNezam . Pesanan adalah dari RoxaneAllay . Kna jawab beberapa soalan berdasarkan blog aq..... sounds interesting...let see , the questions are.... : 

ANTARA REALITI DAN FANTASI

You can just dream about your fantasy,, but live in reality.....

ok.. itu bukan soalan ar... sori... kat atas tu ialah banner of my blog...  ^_^ kat bawah ne bru soalan dya......

1. Nama Blog dan Kenapa anda letak nama itu??

Nama blog aq ialah ANTARA REALITI DAN FANTASI, unik kan...???  ^_^ Aq letak nama tu coz kalo aq x silap, macam ada lagu yg bertajuk macam tu..... tp itu bkan sebab asal laa.... sebab asalnya ialah itu frasa yg duluan terlintas d fikiranku. mungkin jgak sbab aq ada pengalaman pasal tu..?? huhh.. aq pun x tau la ne,, bnyk sbab nya.......  ^_^

2. URL blog anda dan dari mana datangnya idea itu??

http://rusrealfan.blogspot.com/ itu ialah URL blog aq...  idea tu datang dari nama awal aq, n awalan nama blog aq...... RUSman, REALiti, FANtasi..... bukannya peminat sebenar rus (Rus real fan)  ^_^

3. Apakah kaedah dalam penulisan blog anda?

Kaedah penulisan blog aq adalah seperti diari. aq luahkan segala perasaan aq kat blog aq...... aq citerkan suma pengalaman lalu n semasa aq kat situ, agar menjadi iktibar d masa akan datang.... juga sekadar berkongsi .......  ^_^

4. Apa perasaan anda bila tengok blog orang cantik dan menarik sedangkan blog anda tidak.

JELEZZ tahap gila babeng....!!!!!  huhu,, ndada la bha,, kalo blog org len cantik biar la bha,, ada aq kisah....????? (na kan,, bikin panas sda...) blog aq pun cantik n menarik apa.... Its my life and this is my confession......  ^_^

5. Bilakah blog anda diwujudkan?

The exact time aq not sure..... but aq mula berbloggong berblogging sjak Oktober tahun lalu....  ^_^

6. Siapakah orang pertama yang tahu dan menjadi follower blog anda?

Someone whom I dunno, sbab dya x letak gmbar... really not sure ... tp nama dya adi paling comel.

Sekarang pula adalah Anugerah untuk pencapaian blog terbaik..... calon2nya ialah....

Vizard, Mixhedryanson, Fadzil, Kichi, and Ellye. 

Yesterday n Today........

Regarding to my last post, I want to buy bus ticket rite..??? Which was yesterday.... ok,, that was settled. That was the most important thing to be done. But the process of buying the ticket,, aiyooo, dun want to faced it for the next time laa.... so hard n take a LOOOOOOONNG time.

We went to Inanam Terminal Bus Station by bus from Terminal Wawasan. I think actually the timing we went there was not suitable la.... by 12.00 in the noon, can u imagine..??? peak time bha tu......!!!!!! The road was jammed to the fullest. Nearly I got headache in the bus. Fortunately not..  ^_^ Maybe the riding of the bus to go there in peak time hav teach me a lesson,,, PATIENT.... n maybe MANAGEMENT,, in terms of time.

Ater buying ticket, we decide to take a taxi, go back to CP. ok,, we hopes that by taxi,, it'll be smooth......but,, the jammed was getting more jammed..arrgghh....... we're trapped in jam for about 1 hour......  >_<

Then arrived at CP. First went to KFC, that was compulsory....  ^_^ After that watch movie that we think was the movie as we watch its thriller in da big screen there..... hurrmmmm .. so decide to watch NO WAY BACK..

Overall the movie was fantastic...!!!! You can really feel the pain, their suffer, all of that laa..... rating..???? 4 stars...... !!!!!

ooh,, almost forget.... We also went to F.O.S,, juz looking at the clothes n attire, but my fren, Farhan...... huhh... 2 shirt he  bought arr...... dun play2....... Me.....????? juz look2 laa.... later when the allowance is out,,,, hurrmmmmmm wait for it...................................................... SHOPPING.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That was for yesterday...... Today....????????? Planned not to go out............................................................................................................................................................... (subject to change).......  ^_^   trying to save my money.......  @_@

Today's schedule

Schedule 4 today -------->

I've said to my frens that I want to go outing, buy bus ticket to go back hometown, regarding to the Chinese New Year holidays. We've got 1 week holiday, so I decide n said to my mom that I want to go back hometown.

My fren said we start  go to bus terminal by 11.00 am, ok set..!!!! (to buy ticket)

I hav only RM100 in my account. Bus ticket  to Sandakan is about RM60 (if I'm not mistaken)

Not sure yet the tambang to go to Inanam terninal bus.

After buy ticket,,, dunno what to do..................... any suggestions...?????

Contest Gambar Tak Nampak Muka Paling Cool

I've been tag by Ellye Ornella to join this game and this game was created by  MissRafidah. For terms and conditions, refer here.

First of all, I want to join this contest bcoz I've been tag by my fren, and also juz to update my blog. I saw cool picture too, so that's why I want to join.....  ^_^

tadaaa..!!!!!!! inilah gambar x nmpak muka aq  yg  paling kool.... aq berdiri 3 dari kanan....mantap kan..??? boleh wat cover album da ne.....  ^_^

so klasmate aq,, n my beloved fren.. apa lagi,, anda suma di alu2 kan ikut contest ini.....  ^_^

Do you know who I am...???

Who am I rite.....????? I don't even needed here. I know who I am, the quiet, shy, not so known, annoying, weak, not capable to do anything, not so brave, don't hav high confident level, hypocrite, and so many negative behaviour that I hav. sometimes i feel so awkward about myself.  I want to be like them, I mean, do everything that they want to do, as simple as that. no need to think that " what do they say when I do this..?? " Do you know that I always did that, always questioning myself until I dunno what to react and what to do.They easy to get going among themselves. but me..??? I dunno.... its not my desire to be like this. I juz born to it....

But what I like about myself is that I always keep changing and correct the mistakes that I hav done. the saying says that nobody is perfect. i'm really hold that saying.but that is not an excuse for me to be the best. I try, really2 I tried.... you don't know ....all u can see is the smile in my face, the cheerful and sweetness smile on my face. But inside it...???? I'm crying, in pain, regret, its just that i'm the only person in this world who felt that.

I'm still waiting for the times to come. hopefully soon..... where I can start a whole new fresh one. I dun want to hav a sad feeling here. I juz want myself  to realize what have I done, so that I would never overreacting. bcoz when i'm done that, it's really2 terrible for me. so b4 that thing happen, better for me to watch out and control myself. Also wait 4 the person who can really understand me, accept 4 who I am, and appreciate myself and support me in whatever condition......

~~ mengaban sda neyh.......  ^_^
~~nda pa bha, ambil sbgai iktibar, utk panduan d masa hadapan.....  ^_^

Insha'Allah, we'll find our way...

 Mood sekarang sedang melayan lagu2 Maher Zain…. Lagu2 dya mmg best tau,, sedap telinga mendengar. N yg paling penting, lagu ne dapat memberi keinsafan, lebih mendekatkan diri kita pada-Nya. Kekadang menangis jgak aq apabila mendengar lagu ne, teringatkan dosa2 lalu yg pnah d lakukan. Lebih2 lagi kalo dosa tu terasa macam x dapat d ampunkan lg. biarlah aq sahaja yg mengetahuinya. Tp aq yakin bahawa Allah itu Maha Pengampun. Macam dalam lagu Maher Zain ne, InsyaAllah……  ^_^

Every time you feel like you cannot go on

You feel so lost, that you’re so alone

All you see is night, and darkness all around

You feel so hopeless; you can’t see which way to go

Don’t despair and never lose hope

Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha’Allah, you’ll find the way

Every time you can make one more mistake

You feel you can’t repent

And that its way too late

You’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made

Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Turn to Allah

He’s never far away

Put your trust in him

Raise your hands and pray

Ya Allah

Guide my steps don’t let me go astray

You’re the only that showed me the way……….

Sangat sebak hatiku mendengar lagu ne… smpai menangis…. Tp lagu ne jgak la yg menyedarkan aq, kembali ke alam realiti…. Bkan lagi berada d alam fantasi yg penuh bergelumang dengan dosa. Aq x mau ke situ lagi….

FYI,, masi lagi lagu Maher Zain berkumandang kat earphone aq ne…. kalo bleh aq menangis sekuat2 hati, jerit sekuat2 hati, luahkan apa yg selama ini tersimpan dalam hati… tp, yg berlaku, sudah pun berlaku… usah dikenang perkara yg sdah berlalu.. aq cuba untuk melupakannya, namun perkara itu masih terngiang2 di ingatanku…… NNYYAAAAHHHH…….. ko dari hidup aq….!!!!!!!!!!

Memang la apa yg aq bwat sekarang ok,, CHANGE…… Itula yg aq bwat sekarang… but sometimes aq hilang fokus. Terlari dari landasan….. huuuhh…!!! Kna set kat mindset ne btul2……  *_*

BTW,, I miss my family, especially my mom….kat kampung cuma dya ngan adk ku jak.. adk ku yg sorg lagi kat PLKN. Ada jgak cutinya, tp 4 hari jak. So, nda la dya balik… membajir duit jak….. aq pla dapat cuti 1 minggu, walaupun elaun blum lg kuar,, tp my mom kirim duit utk aq beli tiket bas balik kampung.

About my study pla,, macam datang sda penyakit MALAS n BERTANGGUH KERJA aq ne…… huhu,, sebelum melarat, bagus makan ubat cepat2….. Misi mo jadi Best Student mesti mo d capai ne…. apa yang penting…??????  FOKUS……!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   ^_^